welcome

Call me Sueyi.
Call me Sue-Sue.
Call me Sue.
Just don't call me lil fry.

A 19 yr old :

Finding her niche in the passionate world of white coats and stethoscopes.

Missing Malaysian food so badly, that she drowns her sorrow by surfing food blogs.

Who watches scary movies only with friends who have high pain threshold (from all that pinching)

Who has very cold extremities, ask my stimulated patients, oops sorry, "simulated patients"

Who loves a good laugh with candid, thick-skinned friends

Who cannot stay surrounded by 4 walls for more than a few hours

Who loves her loved ones so so much


:)

shout outs



endless wishes

char siew bao.

blueberry muffins.

hot Milo and crackers.

a neverending supply of Daddy's socks.

Bear hugs. Warm kisses. Lots of Love.

My own beach chalet.

Bubble baths.

Shining sun and rainbows.

Sexy stilettos.

Dancing.

Me

I wear socks.Even with heels.

I play with my earlobes.

I have a Mongolian mole.

My family means the world to me. "Family means no one gets left behind"

I like cheekiness. You cheeky, me cheeky.

I heart my close friends, the ones who know me in and out, the ones who've grown with me.

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and when she speaks

Sunday, November 16, 2014

"Don't ever stop dating your wife and don't ever stop flirting with your husband"

"To love a person is to see their magic and to remind them of it, when they've forgotten"

"I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness and to have the patience that love demands, to speak when words are needed and to share the silence when they are no and to live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home"

"Never-ever let those make-you-weak-in-the-knees butterflies in the belly feelings leave. All those domestic things may try to overshadow the blissful float-on-a-cloud love that set your heart on fire in the beginning, but stand strong and remember; he chose you; you chose him. Keep the spark alive."




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Monday, August 25, 2014


Why not take a chance on faith? 

Hope is a beggar. Hope walks through the fire and faith leaps over it. 
You are ready and able to do beautiful things in this world. 
Choose love and never let fear turn you against your playful heart 

-these are beautiful words-

Words that should resonate within you, and stir inspiration and ignite that passion to chase your dreams. Believe in you. 

*carpe diem*

Sueyi 



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Tuesday, August 19, 2014


Eating at The Pig with visiting friends! 


Berl and Pat visit DC :)

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Thursday, July 31, 2014


Kayaking in the summer breeze with Mark. Gorgeous sunshine. Fluffy white clouds in the clear blue sky. Feet in the sand, sinking slowly as you lay your weight on the ground. 

Mark was a fantastic companion who certainly knows how to take you on a thrilling ride. *especially* when I did not have to do work of the arm work ;) hehe.
Pepper in an adventurous spirit- we climbed tree branches and rocks too :) 

Ahhh... a glorious summer day with mother nature. 






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Thursday, February 20, 2014

I write because it's my way of seeking solitude in times of distress.
My heart reaches out for comfort, for solace... and it flows out of me through my words.
My way of venting, of coping when I am overwhelmed.

Sometimes I wonder if my fearless ambition and passion to chasing after my dreams, have left me isolated. Far away from home, from family. I've changed over the years, and my identity has been moulded from being abroad since 14 years of age, traveling through different countries seeking the best of both worlds. From my core Asian values to my Westernized idealism.


I've always felt I have the best of both worlds; like yin and yang. But this feeling sometimes evades me.


There are those moments, when I feel like my dream-chasing has left me further away from the people I love and care for... and it saddens me, because I am ridden with guilt. Guilt for not being the great daughter that I can be, had I not chosen to leave home, and be so far away from my parents.

Guilt for not performing what we value in the Asian society; filial piety.

I wrestle with these conflicts inside of me, and it tears me up. Because a big part of me made this decision a long time ago, to leave home, to pursue the dreams that I have for myself professionally. To accomplish. To be someone who makes a difference in society. My burning drive and passion to be the very best that I can be, is the very reason I left so far away from all who I truly love. Yet, I am torn because I cannot ignore who I am and who I want to be. I am so strong-willed, and so determined, and if not for these core characteristics, I would not be where I am today.


I just turned 26, and I am about to be an oncologist who's trained at a top notch cancer center right at the heart of Washington DC- at the Lombardi Cancer Center. I will graduate from my 3 year oncology fellowship training at the age of 27. The youngest in the entire USA, and possibly the world.


What more could I have dreamed of? I am caring for the sickest of the sick and for a diverse multitude of complex patients with cancer. I am making a difference, and hoping to do more. Most importantly, I love what I do, each and every day.


I wish it would be easier. That I wouldn't be living in a country that takes over 30 hours of flying to be home with my family. That the distance between us would be so much shorter, that we could be closer. I yearn to be home with them more frequently than once a year, to do more for my parents. Here I am, still wanting to accomplish and do more, learn more. I know from what I see at work, how important it is to be balanced, and time and time again, my mentors remind me of that. Quality of life. That's a term we use with our cancer patients, but we so often forget to take care of ourselves, when we are so caught up with taking care of the sick and over-working.


It's a common phenomenon in medicine.


I yearn to be better - at keeping in touch with my family who is so far away, to cherish loved ones and show it, to work at maintaining my relationships with close ones. Never take the people you love, for granted.


I am reminded today, of how, without family as your support system, you are alone. My 80 year old patient with cancer has a few children, who live within the vicinity of only half an hour by driving- yet, not one child of hers, has volunteered to care for her as she is ready to be discharged from the hospital. Not a single one. How can they not come together, and divide the care-giving? It pained me to see that.


"Other things may change- but we start and end with family"


Love,

Sueyi


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Wednesday, February 19, 2014

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Tuesday, January 28, 2014



He saw me from afar, and walked towards me. He said "We are leaving tomorrow for home". I was taken aback, because they had wanted to go home for so long (overseas) but had stayed here for her (his wife) to get treatment here for her metastatic pancreatic cancer the past year. 

He gave me a peck on my cheek and thanked me for all I've done. I saw her coming up towards us, with tears coming down her face. Tears from a heavy heart, as she will be leaving us behind. I smiled at her "I'm so happy you're going home. These are good tears". Then, she looked at me, and we hugged, and I gave her a kiss on her cheek. 

My memory flashed back to how I've come to know and care for this lovely old couple. It started out with her husband making a call to the emergency line (us fellows), to seeing them regularly in my continuity clinic, to caring for her when she was hospitalized twice in a month, to spending time with them whilst she was in the hospital helping them understand this disease and the road blocks this disease brings during the course of treatment til this very day- the day they came to visit to say goodbye before they flew home for good. 

My own heart was heavy from saying goodbye, but I think we'll be keeping in touch It's been such a pleasure to care for her (them) and it's a good feeling, forging such a wonderful relationship with your patient and their loved ones. I wish them all the very best.

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