and when she speaks
Friday, July 27, 2007
Two days ago, I lost my file in the hospital.I was hopelessly searching at every ward I went. Desperate times call for desperate measures.I walked back from home to the hospital at 7pm to search for it when I found it missing from my bag. I even entered my patient's room. I felt so bad because he was sleeping so nicely. But thankfully, I had bonded well with him and his wife, so he was sooo accomodating.He was woken up by me and I apologised.But he helped me searched around for it, and finally said 'I'm sorry sweetie, it's not here'He reminded me 'You didn't come see me today.'I felt guilty because I had said my attending would see him...but politics is dirty in the hospital. Apparently, there was no need to get us -Infectious Disease- involved in his case, so my staff scraped him off the list. It was the Medicine department's fault for chucking him to us, for god knows what reasons.I think I will go see him tomorrow. He's heading for a heart transplant. I hope all goes well.
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9:21 AM;;
"Sue,
You are here to be excellent.
And you are excellent................. But you must remain focused."
Reminds me of me. Only he's more focused. More passionate. More determined.He keeps me grounded and keeps my flames of ambitions alive. I'm glad to have such a wonderful friend in him. We will push each other, each one aiming high to soar in our own journeys.By the way, dear buddy, my nematode answers are anytime better than your trematodes' ;)
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9:12 AM;;
Thursday, July 26, 2007
It pained me to see this malnourished, old man getting his arterial blood sample out.When the nurse finally got the needle out, his other hand stopped trembling and his eyes winced relief for the first time. I went over to him and stroked his pale, feeble hand and pressed the bruised spot.Normally, I'm pretty good at numbing myself. But, this time, I chose not to.I wanted to feel his pain, because it felt right. I shouldn't numb myself too often. Feeling my patients when they go through torture like that- that is what's going to make me a better doctor.I don't want to end up oblivious to their sufferings when I become a real doctor.Live. Love. Embrace the present.
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6:27 AM;;
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Girls like guys who make them feel secure. And most of us have wonderful guy friends to keep an eye on us from time to time. That's the best part about having these concerned friends. But there are times, when we feel our guy friends might have taken the liberty to take our own matters into their own hands a little too enthusiastically, much to our dismay.I have realised it's good to have them around you, especially when you aren't in a safe environment. And it's also good to not take them for granted :)But guys, you must also not forget to not cross the limit and be too overprotective of your girl friends. They mightn't like it because it makes them feel patronised in some ways, but they should voice it out openly.Guys, be protective (ie. gentlemen) but don't be overbearing ;) I speak for many girls here. And Girls, appreciate your buddies :)I've got my big brothers here with me. And they're all gems.
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10:53 PM;;
After all this while, my mum could actually be right.I am allergic to alcohol. I used to dismiss it, thinking it was so silly-who has ever heard of alcohol allergy?I hardly drink, in fact, those who know me, know I drink 'baby' stuff.But each time I do, I've noticed, my neck swells up and turns blotchy red, with itchiness. And I get heart palpitations and bad headaches.I never bothered til this morning when I woke up, I saw the bottom part of my right neck and right shoulder all red and swollen with ugly red lines. It's close to midnight now, and I still have it. I know its temporary but I still looked it up cause I think it isn't a very pretty sight. She's right. Now, I really have to tell my friends 'I'm allergic to alcohol.'I never thought I'd actually have to say that.
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10:47 AM;;
